Do you know the difference between pain and sensation? Do you really?


 

Key Points

  • Trauma can cause dissociation
  • dissociation is an escape from feeling emotions and physical sensation
  • Yoga can heal dissociation
  • The difference between pain and sensation is “well, pain hurts and sensation doesn’t” – Crystal Gray

Rose in deep meditation

 

I didn’t know the difference between pain and sensation. Yoga taught me both

 

 

I didn’t know the difference between pain and sensation.

 

In my yoga classes I tell my students ‘don’t push yourself to the limit, go to where you feel sensation not pain.’ I learned this phrasing from my Yoga Teacher Trainer. She said it so matter of fact. As though it was obvious. Such easy advice. So, when I asked ‘how do you tell the difference between sensation and pain though?’ her answer was simple

 

 

 

 

“well, the pain hurts and the sensation doesn’t.”

 

Oh, duh. Thanks, crystal!

 

I have been dissociated from my body for a long time, probably since before I was 13. In fact, in Second grade (7 years old) I told the school therapist I had a ‘day dream problem.’ I am certain this was the first time I told a social worker what was going on. I went for one reason, for a jolly rancher. Otherwise, it would have been a complete secret. He called my mom. She said to stop looking out the window in class. It was right in front of them but invisible. My invisible monster.

 

Dissociation as webster’s dictionary defines ‘the disconnection or separation of something from something else or the state of being disconnected.’ In psychology the term describes escaping your body and mind. Feelings dull both physically and mentally.

My vision would lose focus, like a daydream with no substance. I was a quiet, modest girl by nature. I liked to listen to other people have conversations and learn.  Because of my inherent temperament it was easy to rationalize what was going on in my head. But I was not really listening. I was escaping from the chaotic environment before me in a way no one could notice. Adults would say I was such a well-mannered girl.

 

Back then, in my young teens, I would self-harm to allow a sense of departure from my emotional wounds. I would not suggest this but at the time it made sense in my naïve youth. It gave me the desired affect I wanted. To feel something.  To direct my attention to something. To briefly escape from something. Though it worked, I did not know what these somethings were.

These somethings followed me from adolescence and into adulthood, morphing from one vice to another. Razor blades, hitting my head against walls, alcohol blackouts, binges, purges, staying up late, sleeping during the day, meeting strangers with complete disregard for my safety. These were all normal for me. To someone else, the only word I can describe these things is pain.

But it was normal.

I never stopped feeling the pain to the point where it became my status quo. In my mind sensation and pain were synonymous. It hurt to feel something. It hurt to feel anything. But everyone wants to feel something. 

So pain was what I would feel.

It was 3 years ago I realized the difference. The pain became so intense I felt like I was dying. It was frightening. It took me 4 months of constant feeling of heart attack when my aunt took me to the emergency room. Drinking her hot bone broth in the ER was when I decided to make a real change. I was told I was having panic attacks

 

I would decide to try to live and begin to feel everything. For the sake of my partner, for the sake of my aunt, and for the sake of the little girl who deserved to know peace and never had the chance. I count this as my rebirth. The woman from before that day is a woman who I love dearly, but I now see her as a completely different person. We are sisters. She is my past.

It was that year I started to do yoga on a regular basis.

You learn a lot of things when you start to do yoga. Things come up. They bubble up to the surface and there is a release of emotions with every one of my classes. Some classes I would cry, others I would  flash back to seemingly inconsequential moments in my life. They were consequential apparently.

 

Because I was had been so disconnected from my body, I started to actually see what I looked like and feel what I looked like. I think I hadn’t looked into a mirror in years so this was a huge change. I started to know what the texture of my skin, the feeling of thirst, how much space I took up (as apposed to how much I thought I took up), then more and more subtle sensations like the pulse of my heart in my thumb.

But what was sensation?

Doing yoga every day was the way I figured it out. It was when I tried hanamanasana, splits, for the first time. I was not even close to ready for this contortion. I went into the pose and my bum was two feet off the ground. Then I let go to go all the way into a pose I was definitely not ready for.

 

Sharp, sudden, hot, weak, swollen, pierced me in my right abductor. Ahh! I fell out of the pose immediately. I thought oh this is pain. I hadn’t hurt myself in such a while, and had started to feel myself on daily basis, I could finally tell the difference. Like Crystal had said, well, the pain hurts.

 

A numbness came over me in savasana . An old familiar feeling. It comes into my third eye and sweeps down into my neck where my throat feels swollen. The dissociation was back while I laid in savasana, corpse pose.

But I could feel the shift. I could name it. I knew how it came to be. And I knew it would be over at some point. By the end of my extended corpse pose I would try to walk.

It was hard. I limped for a few days and it took a whole month to heal from the sprain of my inner thigh. I was reminded of my fresh wounds of adolescence, taking weeks to heal as I would scratch at the scabs and make them bleed again. Not this time, I promised myself.

 

For the next couple of months, I allowed myself only beginner poses, with beginner modifications. Because of yoga, I was learning to take care of myself and heal from pain. Ever before I had never felt the need for healing.

I would be my own mother and nurse the little girl inside of me.

We are good friends now.

 

Have you ever been so into a movie you forget you’re in the theater and just soak up the experience? Well, when you go to a movie that’s what you intend to do. I think we should try to let those fluttering thoughts come and go without judgement, so that we can stay connected to the true present moment and into what our bodies feel in that moment.

 

So, I ask you this.

Do you know the difference between pain and sensation? Do you really?

When was the last time you felt pain and what did it feel like? How often do you feel pain? How long does it last? Where does it start and where does it end? What can you do in that moment to comfort yourself? Even if you don’t suffer from dissociative episodes, these might be fair questions for you.

 

 In our busy modern lives, it is easy to focus on your mind. All your racing thoughts. ‘the kids need to get picked up’ ‘I can’t be late for my appointment,’ ‘my sibling really did a jerky thing to me,’ ‘why is the guy in front of me taking so long at checkout?’ all of these kinds of thoughts take us away from the present moment and away from our bodies.

Let them come and go like clouds, and embrace every good feeling while you can taste it. Pain is inevitable, but when you can tell the difference, you can savor the good feelings I promise.

 

 

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Summary

  • Mindfulness can help diffuse triggers
  • A trigger is a topic that floods a patient with anxiety
  • Sometimes trigger warnings are helpful and other times they are not
  • Mindfulness, Journaling, Taking notes on habits, & Tracking mood can help you figure out what your triggers are

Trigger Warnings: a contemplation


By Rose Moore, 4/21/2021

Yesterday I made a mindful observation about my unconscious habits.

 

I noticed I’d weighed myself 3 days in a row. You may think this is a normal practice since it is important to be mindful of your body in a multitude of ways, but to me it is a red flag. One of the outcomes you may face with mindfulness practice is that you see patterns in your life. In yoga these patterns are called samskara which means the wheel of life. You can see this wheel across cultures and eras. When we have habits, they are hard to change and likely to come back up in your life at a time when this pattern is triggered.

 

Can we talk about the word trigger for a second? My goodness what a loaded term.1 A trigger is an incident that creates causation. It is the instigation to your result. It is the catalyst to an event. In the pop psychology sphere trigger is a term used by people with anxiety, PTSD & phobias to describe what causes their anxiety to flare up. Many psychologists have adopted the word and are used to describe the things which can happen in life to flood a person with emotion.

 

It isn’t a joke, and it isn’t something to berate. If someone gives you a ‘trigger warning,’ basically a forewarning of sensitive topics ahead. It is a helpful message to prepare yourself emotionally or to leave the conversation. In academia, group therapy settings, or within even a small social book club a trigger warning can help someone with PTSD decide if they want to take the class or read the book.

 

One of my triggers in medical horror. As a person with diagnosed PTSD, I have learned that this trigger is my responsibility and mine alone. No one is forced to give me fair warning of medical horror, and why would they? How would anyone know that this popular horror trope, would put me into a panic attack? There is no way since I don’t talk about it normally and it isn’t on the top ten trigger list of tumblr.

 

So, you know what I do? If I am going to watch a movie that isn’t a romance or comedy, I google the movie first to see if there will be anything of this nature in the film. This gives me back my power, helps me filter out media, and demands nothing from anyone besides myself. It has taken a long time to get here.

 

I am also triggered by a pungent fabric softener scent. Now how the heck is anyone going to give me a warning for that? It is a common household item, and I would be out of line to request all my friends, family, store clerks etcetera stop using fabric softener because I don’t like it.

 

I think the word I’m trying to find here is entitlement. If you feel entitled to a trigger warning before all events, you will find yourself suffering often and out of control in your life. It simply isn’t going to be something you can count on, and the media you consume is not at fault.

 

However, I do see where the mockery can come in from normies who are not invested in self-help. Partly they may do so because of pushback to language policing, or the performative nature of a trigger warning. Whatever their reason happens to be, it is (in my humble opinion) the rude attitude which ends up dividing us, not their complaints.

 

For instance, one thing I see a lot on Facebook is the use of user trigger warnings followed by a picture of the triggering subject completely unmasked. There is no way to hide an image or video on your feed, all your friends will see it. Putting a trigger warning above an image of someone in a choke hold will not warn anyone since we can see the traumatic image either way.

 

These are a performance, and often where the mockery stems from. In some circles, trigger warnings are made for food, regular food, because food can trigger people with eating disorders. In an ED support group this would be effective, but in a group about your favorite internet podcaster, or a forum about nature, probably not useful in any way as everyone eats food and it is a common conversation that even toddlers engage in. These trigger warnings in places outside of the context add to this mockery despite how well intentioned they appear.

 

I feel deeply for people with eating disorders. I had one in my twenties. Managing to overcome bulimia meant taking control. Ironic since bulimia stems from a desire for control. This is where we circle back to the mindfulness at the beginning of this essay.

 

I can catch myself now, before I start into my bad eating habits. This is where you can take control of your triggers too. Find out the step that comes just before the melt down. Then think of what step comes before that. Then what comes before that?

 

In the line of habits that form my bulimic tendencies, there is weighing myself every day, looking at body influencers on the internet, limiting my food pantry drastically, and forgetting to eat meals for more than a day. I didn’t know all of this until I started journaling, taking notes, and tracking my mood

 

Mindfulness

Journaling

Take notes on habits

Track mood

 

 

If you are suffering from your triggers, from an eating disorder, or any other kind of mental health crisis here are some organizations where you can find help near you

Eating Disorders: https://anad.org/get-help/about-our-support-groups/

Mental Health crisis Line: https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline

All kinds of mental health resources: https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/find-help/index.shtml

find help: https://www.nami.org/Home

 

 

1 pun intended. Puns are always intended.

 

 

 

 

summary

  • Shiva and Sati fell in love
  • Dad didn’t like it, planned a party and snubbed Shiva!
  • Sati could not bare with her dads disapproval and left the earth dramatically
  • Shiva’s hair created a warrior to destroy Daddy’s ego

Virabhadra Warrior Myth

warrior 1 2 3 illustration
Virabhadrasana in 3 asana forms

How did these asanas come to be called warrior poses?

Virabhadra Is the story of how your ego can keep you from embracing the people who you love and hurt them in ways you would never expect. It also has a solution to the pesky ego–off with the head of it! Then will love to be free of expectation This is my retelling of Virabhadra’s story, I hope you enjoy it.

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Shiva was in love with Sati.

Who wouldn’t, really, she was a woman so pure of heart and beautiful, she found eyes on her from all corners of the world? Shiva, destroyer, and supreme being god, asked her to marry him. Jealous!

Sati’s dad, Daksha, was a stubborn man who felt he deserved respect. He was also one of Shiva’s 9 brothers(citation needed), so the marriage was a huge surprise.

Daksha’s point of view was that of a creator, as he was Sati’s father. Talk about a big ego! When Shiva and Sati married without asking him first, the man lost it. He decided he would exclude the honeymooners from his next bonfire, the most ballin’ parties in the land. Everyone was going to be there; it would be the throwdown of all throwdowns. It was called the annual Yajna party. Complete with a ritual sacrifice by fire, the signature party trick of a Yajna.

 

The day of the party Gods all started coming around catching Sati’s attention. She said to Shiva, ‘what the heck I didn’t know there was a party tonight, you want to check it out?’

The day of the party Gods all started coming around catching Sati’s attention. She said to Shiva, ‘what the heck I didn’t know there was a party tonight, you want to check it out?’

Shiva said, naw, it will only make a scene and I already get the message. Not worth it. My bro has always been unmoving in his opinions.

but once he got to know their love was pure her dad would change his mind… right?

Sati was unconvinced, however. Having such a high respect for her father, Sati believed she could level with him. She understood he was upset, but once he got to know their love was pure her dad would change his mind… right?

Not so much. Sati’s father sneered at the sight of her daughter and made some pot shots at Shiva for being a long-haired hippie and goblin king.

I do not know what Daksha expected from this, but the result was Sati losing total respect for the guy.

She was humiliated and heartbroken, a massive boulder of respect shattering within her heart. Once you come down from that pedestal there is no going back up, dad. Her fearful reaction led her to set herself ablaze in the ritual fire of the Yajna. She would live and die on her own terms, and not be made small by her father.

This is where Virabhadra comes into the story.

Once Shiva found out of his wife’s death, he ripped out some of his long, luscious hair locks and threw them to the ground covering them with dirt. If Daksha were going to make trouble, Shiva would make a warrior and an entire army to bring down his bro once and for all.

Out popped Virabhadra, a creation manifested from Shiva’s desire to avenge his wife’s untimely death. They got an army, Shiva picked out some swords ready and they rode to the Yajna where Virabhadra showed off his insanely cool moves. The moves were:

  • Virabhadrasana I (warrior I) – Upon the arrival at the yagna, Virabhadra placed the sword in both hands and thrusts his way upwards through the earth.

  • Virabhadrasana II (warrior II) – a preparatory pose used to size up Daksha and ready a counterattack.

  • Virabhadrasana III (warrior III) – the final blow, a fierce chop with his sword, beheading Shiva’s father-in-law, and brothers.

Shiva had the choice of Daksha’s fate in his hands. Virabhadra backed away and Shiva came forth with a goat’s head. “This is your head now, bro, enjoy baaaahing for the rest of your life, everyone will know you are a fool. PEACE OUT DUDE” and he dropped the mic.

Shiva and Sati were reunited in her next reincarnation, Parvati. Parvati was imbued with the wisdom of Sati, who had learned a huge lesson.

 

  1. A) the ego will cause you to do some embarrassing and dramatic things

  2. B) Shiva will always be able to help cut loose the ego and

  3. C) The ego was attached to what other people thought, and she could let go

This knowledge made her the goddess of love

 

 

 

 

Grounding with Tree Pose

  • Roots
  • Balance
  • Nutrients
  • Hydration
  • Change

Tree Pose, Balance, and what I mean when I say Grounding


An essay and contemplation by Rose Moore

4/7/2021

Grounding is a term to describe the praxis of coming to the present – Royoyoga

Anxiety is caused by thinking about the future. Depression comes from thinking about the past. Think to yourself, do you find yourself thinking about the past of future more? How do this correlate with your depression or anxiety symptoms? Grounding is a term to describe the praxis of coming to the present. A dulling of the future and past.

How can tree pose ground you then? First let us meditate on the idea of a tree.

When we think of the broader concept of grounding a tree you might think roots going down into the ground, a large trunk to keep the tree from falling over, healthy nutrients so that the limbs of the tree retain durability, water, to soak the cells so not to shrink, or even the cycle of life when in the fall leaves may fall literally onto the ground.  

So how can we relate to these conditions of a tree? Next time you come into this asana I want you to really think on the subject.

 

Roots? What are your roots?

For some people it is their home, for others it is their family, some even connect their roots to their ancestors. In a smaller sense your roots can also be what is the motivating factors for your current project. All of our ideas have a root in our prusha, our lens of the world. In this sense, tree pose can signify a cleaning of this lens, clearing out the distractions so that you can see the roots in your life—meaning what makes you tick, what makes you swoon, and everything in between.

Balance? Have you ever fallen over?

I recently cut my heel. I was running around my back yard barefoot, carefree, and sliced my calloused heel open on a small stump from a bush I had cut down last year. In a literal sense, I fell over.

 Since then, I have had a limp on my right foot slightly. Being injured from the base of my body has changed my yoga practice, and I am unbalanced. Funny thing, it is not the cut which caused the imbalance, no. It is the cut which brought my imbalances to life.

When you practice yoga these kinds of imbalances physically can help you with your emotions, mind, and soul as well. Do to the cut on my right foot I have been practicing tree pose on my left side, which is the side that represents the sun (the HA in Hatha yoga). Now, having contemplated these symbols for a while, I said, aHA! Something is imbalance in my daily life, rather than a deeper undercurrent in my life. This is because the THA in hatha represents night, and what comes out at night?

The moon, which takes a month for a cycle. Daily tree pose on the left side has helped me come back to my daily habits and I wouldn’t have made this choice to focus on my left if I had not gotten injured. Much like a tree with a limb cut off, branching out the opposite direction to keep up tall.

Food? How do you feel different when you get the nutrients you need?

We all must eat, even trees. In a way, trees compete with grass for the nutrients in the ground. Who do we compete with for food? Yes, there are outer competitions for beauty, health, prosperity etc, but Id challenge you to look internally. What have you eaten recently and how does your body feel in return? What issues do you have with food, emotionally?

A lot of us have emotional eating patterns and tree pose can be a time to contemplate where those thoughts are coming from. If you stop and appreciate a single slice of orange*—the texture, the flavor, the pulp in your mouth, the feelings can dissipate, grounding you by allowing you to appreciate the food coming into you.

Tree pose helps with digestion because of the balance you receive from sucking in your belly during the pose. When you do this, you will feel more grounded, meaning less likely to fall! Your center of gravity happens to also be where your body digests food,

*I choose orange because it is the first food I picked for mindful eating. It is not just enjoying food, there is a whole process. More on this practice coming soon.

Hydration? When you drink water, how does your body react, and how does this help with expansion?

Like I said earlier, water expands the cells in a tree. It also expands the cells in your body, plumping them up giving a reserve for which your cells can keep working. When you do not drink water, you may notice particular sensations. Your mouth may feel dry, you may get dizzy, your urine changes colors. All of this is effect from dehydration. It is easier to deal with difficult situations, over pour with gratitude, and live your best life when you are hydrated. Just like a tree!

Trees know when it is going to rain. They curl their leaves into a cup for water and get ready to be drenched. You too can prepare yourself for water with the tree pose asana. Taking a moment to check in with your body, decide what affects you are feeling from more or less water, and make a plan. Drink the water! Merely taking the moment to check in is grounding. You are feeling the root of your body’s sensations.

Change? Where do you find yourself when you feel your leaves falling, entering a new phase in your life?

This contemplation is fun! As humans we stay the same forever in our consciousness which never goes away, a deeper lesson on yoga that deserves its own blog post. You know what does not stay the same??? Literally everything else, from the world spinning to the emotions which may rock you like waves. The same goes for a tree, which is always the same tree despite its reactions to the time of the year. There are some trees which will die in cold climates, they tend to have juicy leaves, flower, or have fruits. They go barren in the winter and come alive in the spring.  These are called deciduous trees.

Once you go north you will see trees with needles, that do not appear to shed during the winter or change in the summer. These are called coniferous trees. Both types of trees are ever changing, however. The pine trees shed their needles often and drop cones filled with seeds, much like the fruit of a cherry tree.

Are you a fruit tree with dramatic, visible changes in your life right now? Or a pine tree, constantly shedding but also keeping up a constant image to the world? Change is hard, so let these contemplations guide you through tree pose when you feel something new coming along.

To conclude

Woah, trees are more like humans than we thought eh? The yogis have known for centuries. Not because of education for which a yogi has much, but because in yoga we can contemplate how we are human, but also no different than any other aspect of the world. Something you cannot learn in a book or from a guru. It must be experienced, thus suffering (that anxiety and depression we talked about earlier) be quelled from the mind. We have a lot in common with our tree friends when we can come into the present, leaving the past behind and the future as something for later.

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ROYO YOGA BLOG: Practicing Yoga with CPTSD

by Rose Moore

August 6, 2020

 

Hey there friends,

Today I want to talk about the anxiety I have, and how I am learning to manage. I’ll talk a little bit about toxic yogi online bullies as well.

I spend a lot of time online these days. With a blog, a video tarot reading service, administrating and modding several yoga Facebook groups and my Zoom classes I am online a lot more than I ever have been in my life. 

Not what I expected when I started my yoga teacher training and absolutely terrifying at first. Id have to put my body on the internet?? So scary. Its not weird now because I’ve gotten used to it…. but listen..

 I still am shook when I get unsolicited, unloving, nonconstructive, and unwanted criticism.

That’s the nicest way to put it, and it’s the only way i’m going to describe it here. I think you get the idea though.


Let me tell this to you straight: I am not a contortionist.

I am here to exercise my mind and then my body.

I started doing yoga to help with CPTSD. The acronym means complex post traumatic stress disorder. This term is a mystery to many people. Basically it means I grew up in an inconsistent household, . Paul walker writes in “CPTSD: From Surviving To Thriving” that this ailment comes from ‘not good enough parents’ who may have tried their best, but simply did not have the tools or desire to get the tools to teach their children emotional resilience during important developmental stages.¹ Add a few serious traumas too dark to fashion on a blog like this and.. 

I get scared

I scream

I cry

I shake

I cling

I have to learn the emotional regulation most learn as children. In a sense, I am like a child.

It got really bad when my father married a woman I barely knew who he had apparently been seeing since before he divorced my mom years earlier. Double life. It was wisdom I could not cope with as a married woman and daughter to a man I realized I did not know. 

It felt like I was dying. In a sense, this was the death of my childhood naivete. 

 I went into treatment. I said I cannot be a child surviving anymore, and I want to thrive the way Paul Walker describes in his book. I went into a psychiatric hospital for a month and left with one certainty: I was going to parent myself and become a fully actualized woman. This is what led to yoga:

Yoga is one of the medicines I need to thrive. 

It helps me so much I wanted to share this gift with the world. With those who are suffering, scared. Those are my people! 

 I started my teaching training with the hope to help those with anxiety; who want more self esteem. For those who want to be able to hold themselves and feel full of love for the first time the way I have.

I saw asana, the exercise routine you think of as yoga in the west, as a small part of this experience. One piece of a much larger puzzle which is my mental duress. For me, the other aspects of yoga were more important, because my wounds were emotional. Asana for me is a tool to get into those other 7 limbs. The eight limbs of yoga are yama (self care), niyama(morals), asana (yoga postures), pranayama (breathing techniques), pratyahara (single focusing), dharana (concentration), dhyana (meditation) and samadhi (the indescribable culmination of the last 7 limbs mentioned).”  

We are not all the same however.

I wasn’t aware of this, living in a little bubble of solitude– Some people who practice yoga… Are not nice.

When i get confronted with the self proclaimed “real yogis” who are self proclaimed “advanced” who say my form is wrong and I don’t look great… It takes some time for me to shake it off. Did I mention it was hard for me to put my body online? It still is, and I do it to share my journey, not for unsolicited strangers to lecture me on my form in a body positivity forum. 

People can scare me. I am not perfect.

This is why I practice yoga.

If being a real yogi means being skinny, contortionist,  know it all… I may never be one. 

But I practice, I try, and do so without distraction, consistently, looking forward to it. Just like Putanjali, the father of the sutras, describes in

Sutra 1.4: “Sah tu dirgha kala nairantarya satkara savita dridha bhumih.”²

The English translation is in my words:

 steady self in Yoga practice comes once one continues to practice sincerely and with respect for a long period of time without interruption.”

I am not sure how sincere the yogis who take the time to scroll and talk down to others are in their practice. That’s just me though!

I may always be absolutely nuts as well, I have no idea what the future holds.

I hope this helps someone out there. As a yoga teacher my main goal is to help resolve these kinds of terrible wounds through all 8 limbs of yoga. 

 

Walker, P. (2013). Complex PTSD: From surviving to thriving: A guide and map for recovering from childhood trauma. Lafayette, CA: Azure Coyote.

Saraswati, S. (2013). Four chapters on freedom: Commentary on yoga sutras of Sage Patanjali. Munger, Bihar: Yoga Publications Trust.

ROYO YOGA BLOG: LISA FRANK TAROT SEQUENCES

by Rose Moore

August 2, 2020

 

Hello my lovelies. I am trying something new today for everyone on my royoyoga facebook page.

Do you remember Lisa Frank  ? With dolphins, bananas, out of this world pandas and kitten princesses? I grew up in the ’90s and at the height of Lisa Frank’s career. I had stickers, my friends had trapper keepers; basically we were all blinged out from head to toe with gaudy images smiling back at us. the style was iconic, and the brand has survived to this day. 

Lisa herself was an eccentric lady. Her house was head to toe dripping with her flashy designs but she would never let anyone in. The mystery of her interior was a great mystery to me as a middle schooler. 

What I like most is how positive her message was, and how clearly it delivered. Absolutely NO  subtlety! You know what IS subtle? The tarot!

The tarot imagery and symbolism can be difficult to discern at times, and often a week or so after a reading I will have people message me and say, “Ok now it makes sense.” With Lisa Frank, what you see is literally what you get. So when I found out that there was a Lisa Frank Tarot deck floating around on the internet, of course I had to have it. 

The deck is only the major arcana, which are the first 22 cards in the Tarot. If you listen to me often you may have heard me call these the ‘fate cards.’ I am not sure about the reality of fate, but when I pull a major arcana card one thing is for sure: It is an important moment in your life. Sometimes these messages are hard to swallow, and the goofy pineapple with sunglasses filters the message with a distinctly ’90s, gaudy optimism. 

This all leads to me now, a yoga instructor RYT200. I am not a regular yogi. This is a fact people continue to point out to me in the most endearing way. My tarot inspires my yoga, and my yoga inspires my tarot. It’s fun 😀

Today I asked everyone in the Royo Yoga facebook group to pick a card, you may as well right here:

 

back side 3 cards lisa frank

What did you pick? Tell me tell me tell me!!! Here is the results:

Lisa Frank Fortunes

Top left is the hermit
Top right is the devil Bottom is death

But I’m not going to just leave you with that!!! Check out these quick 10 minute Asana Sequences I constructed based on the cards you picked

The hermit:

Your pocket fortune: Picking this card means you must draw your energy inward. Do something alone. Meditate. Take a walk, and or a bubble bath.

Sequence based on the Hermit card from the Lisa Frank tarot deck

Sequence:

  • Lotus 
  • Balasana Childs pose 
  • Malasana Yogi Squat
  • Savasana Corpse pose

 

The devil:

Your pocket fortune: Its ok, I know you want to. Picking this card means you should indulge in your desires today

Sequence based on the devil from the lisa frank tarot deck
Sequence based on the Devil card from the Lisa Frank tarot deck

Sequence:

  • Marjaryasana and bitilisana Cat/Cow
  • Sphynx pose
  • Camel
  • Corpse pose

Death

Your pocket fortune: You are in need of a ego check. Murder your ego for today and find peace within

A sequence based on the lisa frank tarot deck
Sequence based on the death card from the Lisa Frank tarot deck

Sequence:

  • Virabadrasana Warrior 1
  • Virabadrasana Warrior 2
  • Virabadrasana Warrior 3
  • Corpse pose

 

I hope you enjoyed this little exercise. It was fun to create, and there will more in the future. I’m always looking for inspiration in all areas of my life which can be translated into yoga. Yoga is more than physical exercise for me. It’s a way for my mind body and soul to connect. 

Lets just say, my soul can’t get enough of Lisa Frank!

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Peace, love, namaste

 

 

 

Hi you guys!

My name is Rose Moore, I am the founder/creator of Royo Yoga.

 

I’m new to the professional tarot reader scene. I have seen different methods that vary from reading out of a favorite book, numerology, symbol reading, and more. I’ve also focused at different times of my life on each of these methods and they will inspire good stories in different ways. These days I do a mix of the three and a foundational research on cultural contexts from when they were made and how these symbols have changed in modern day. 

I’’m going to demonstrate what my readings would look like with a reading for myself. It’s going to be very vulnerable, it will be an eye opening experience, and it is going to be fun.

tarot deck option - spirit speak

I am using the Spirit Speak Tarot Deck created by Mary Elizabeth Evans in Oakland, California. She created the artwork and it came with this adorable little book actually written out in her handwriting. That does make it somewhat hard to read if you’re the type of person who wants to read the author’s intent for the base of their readings. Unless you like her handwriting maybe it would be even easier!

 

 But it’ll be hard for me if I were to be reading for someone else.

 

HERE WE GO

Celtic Knot

 

spirit speak Celtic Knot
spirit speak Celtic Knot

Every book you will ever got on tarot, it’s the first thing you learn.

I use the book by Danielle Knoll, Tarot for the modern mystic for this exercise.

 

First card is a signifier. If you have a reading with me I will not give you a signifier. I will shuffle the deck until you tell me to stop (in person, I would just have you shuffle yourself), then I ask you if you want to cut the deck. After that, the card on top will be the signifier.

 

I do this because a lot of people don’t know what they want to know, and that’s totally fine! Readings typically fall into two types regardless:

  1. The type where you want to know something specific
  2. The type where you just want to know where to think

 

If you have a specific intent that may call for a specific signifier, and I would need to know your question before our appointment. 

 And with that in mind,

Here is my signifier:

Signifier in the very middle of the cross of the deck

3 of cups signifier 

Spirit Speak 3 of Cups
Spirit Speak 3 of Cups
  • Look at the card.

  • This is what i’ll say to you. Do you notice the balloons, what do you think of balloons? There will be no third wheel here, it will be an ultimately balanced friend group experience. The angles on the triangle are all the same degree saying balance. Flowers coming out of cups, signifying futility

 

Card on top of signifier – 

Spirit Speak 10 of cups
Spirit Speak 10 of cups
  • The heart of the matter (i also like to read signifier as you, and the top is how the world sees you)
  • I got the wheel of fortune – a karmic cycle in your life. Karmic sycles can go around and around and around an can cause the same troubles all over again. This means you have overcome a schema and don’t have to repeat that behavior again
    • Now lets look at where the card is placed, which is how OTHER PEOPLE see the situation. People think i’m doing pretty good and can see i’ve overcome a lot. Its ok because I just finished my yoga teacher training so it totally makes sense. Starting my yoga business, and i’ve come far in my healing journey

The Root of the signifier

Spirit Speak 5 of Cups
Spirit Speak 5 of Cups
  • Five of cups. So look at these cups what do they look like to you. They’re spilling out all that water it looks like toxic sludge, lady crying, and some cups behind him or her. So i would say you can see from the symbols that this is about despair. Cups are always about people in your lives just like how the three of cups was about a balanced friend group. This also makes sense because if you’ve been following me for a long time I had to say goodbye to some friends because I was too sick and had to say goodbye. I made an executive decision to separate from them. It is like a loss and I do feel like it was the death of someone because I’m never probably going to contact them again.

 

Next card is the eight of wands which represents the past

 

Spirit Speak 8 of Wands
Spirit Speak 8 of Wands
    • 8 of wands. Basically i went on this card theres a ship so you went on a journey, it looks like its on fire so i’d say you burned a bridge on your way to your next step. And if you go back to the wheel of fortune here, id say its a good move because i ended up ending a karmic cycle. I had to move away from something so that i can translation into my new karmic cycle. 

 

  • Top card: represents whats your shining crown. Whats in the present, today what is my shining light. In this book it says the best that can be achieved. 

 

Spirit Speak 3 of Wands
Spirit Speak 3 of Wands

 

    • 6 of wands
      • We’ve got the wand in our hands so we are in control. We have that balanced triangle, this one has a cup in here so there are people in play, so i would say this means i have the conductor thing, thats how i would read. Because i am going to be teaching yoga so i will be conducting. While you channel your spirit and create your own art based on my conducting

The predicted immediate future:

Spirit The Hermit
Spirit Speak The Hermit

 

        • I don’t think i can tell you what your future is. I don’t believe in determinism which means i think we can create our own reality. Shift your thinking in your 
        • If we believed in fate or determinism i could say i know what exactly is going to happen and id be right.The hermit
          • This is a major arcana card. So first thing i would say is look whaats going on. I’ve got these buddys theyre snakes. I’m looking at this star and i can touch it. I’m blush with my inspiration and i don’t need to take much effort to touch this star, it is a calm pointing motion
          • You are slow moving right now, you have all the potential to touch the stars but right ow i need to chill meditate. Because i’m going to be on a higher level to manifest and that takes a lot of energy. So it makes sense you’ve got to recharge. 
          • Its really hard for me to contact all these people, ask for money. Even though i’m excited for my class the extraverted energy of selling is depleting for me. So the hermit makes sense, i’ve expended the energy and now i need to come back for myself.

 

You and your power (summary of the cross)

 

spirit speak hanged man
Spirit Speak Hanged Man

 

    • The hanged man
      • Its not about hanging yourself its not about hate or killing. I go into this further in my video if you watch it
      • In my context this means something out of your control has happened and you need to sit with it even though you have dealt with it. You’re going to hang loose. Things are out of your control, you’re not going to move and you don’t have to. Just stick with your thoughts and let the blood flow back down to your heart. 
      • Hanging from the foot. And he can catch his foot and get himself loose. So work your abs eventually you can let yourself loose 

 

 

Environment

spirit speak ten cups
ten of cups
    • Ten of cups
      • Images: Two rings to say holy union, hands up in the air happily, love hearts, and all these cups 
      • Numerology: Tens in any reading is going to be 
      • Insight: I am agoraphobic. I was agoraphobic, I was so freaking scary. It affected a lot of my relationships. If you look back at the five up cups you can see what I mean. So it’s nice going from 5 to 10 with a full family.. This group fills my cup, i love talking to all of you

 

Second to last card written two different ways

spirit speak kowands
Spirit Speak King of Wands

 

    •  For this card i can read it one of two ways depending on how the rest of your spread has gone, these ways are: Advice, or hopes and fears
    • I got the king of wands. I hate kings because they’re hard for me to read. Because the king is supposed to be a mature man and when have you ever seen anyone like that
    • This guy is a red head. If i do a reading for you i would say there’s fire in the astrology passionate guy, probably successful, 
    • Imagery we have the wand on fire because he’s burning with passion, and he has the entire city in his hands. I really like this imagery because when you have reached self actualization you can love an entire city. That’s what it does, it allows you to love stuff. 

 

The outcome

Spirit speak strength
spirit speak strength
    • Strength
    • Major arcana card which means its a fate card which means its unavoidable
    • Rabbit is holding this male lion by his chompers and the lion is just cool with it. Its trust. This is trust, when the lion and the rabbit trust each other. There is so much that they can learn from each other. The bond can be super good because its taming that wild part inside of you but also loving it. 

End of reading

  • Next thing is i would look at this entire story we went through every card individually so a) what didn’t make sense before and b) 

Quiet person during a reading i will ask ‘does this make sense? And then do this summary at the end

  • Overall it looks like I’ve come around from an ugly social scene, spun my karmic wheel to grow out of old schema, in order to bring strength to other people as seen in the ten of cups.

 

All about stories we love to talk about. Some people like to talk about themselves, i don’t really like to but i’m doing it so you can see what it looks like. But we love stories. So i’m putting these images together if that resonates with you. And when it does I can see the glowing on your face. 

 

How does Rose do it? Well I listen to you! I’m listening and seeing what works for you and then going with THAT imagery. 

So you can learn something about yourself that you didn’t know before.

 

 

 

 

Tonight is the new moon, does anyone have any good plans? On the new moon I always take a ritual bath under the light of nothing but the stars.

The new moon is when I take the time to make new intentions for the next moon phase. Whether you believe that the moon helps with your energy in a spiritual way, or if you simply like to re evaluate your goals once a month as a secular self care practice. Its a good way to remember and keep up with your current priorities.

During the last moon phase a lot happened in my life. I graduated my Yoga Teacher Training 200 hour, I started selling registrations for my Wild Self Love Yoga Workshop, I started this website. It was really hard some days, but those fears are understandable so I am giving myself a break for my emotional moments.

That was so last moon phase though, am I right?

I implore you to consider these questions as you go through this wonderful sequence I created to honor this time of the month:

What can I do in the next two weeks to make my life full of fire and passion?

What kind of things am I passionate about?

What is stopping me?

 

We are moving into the season of Leo. Perfect time to think about the people and things you love.

 

Ok time to get on the mat, here is my New Moon Yoga Sequence for this month:

 

Sequence:

  1. Tadasana

    1. Tadasana
      Tadasana, Mountain Pose
  2. Sun Salutaion A

    1. Extra breath during plank

    2. forward bend
      tilt forward with the pelvis
      Monkey Pose
      Come half way up, find your cobra
      Plank
      Step back into Plank, hold for an extra breath
      pushing forwa
      Push forward on your toes so that your shoulders are past your wrists, and then come down elbows squeezing against your torso
      Cobra
      Push into your knuckles sending your chest up and shoulders back. tuck your chin slightly, keep elbows bent
      Downward Facing Dog
      Push back into downward facing dog, being mindful to push with the knuckles, roll your shoulders away from each other, and bend the knees for easier form.

       

  3. Anjanaeasana kneeling warrior

    1. hands at hips

    2. Kneeling warrior
      From downward dog, bring your right foot through to between your arms, rise up with the power of your abs, push forward with your knee so that it is right on top of the ankle, find a neutral pelvis
  4. ½ splits

    1. Mudra hands

    2. Half splits
      straighten your leg from kneeling warrior and reach forward with your hands and torso, arch your tailbone slightly
  5. Kneeling warrior (see above)

  6. Crescent warrior

    1. crescent warrior
      Lift your leg off the ground, steady on your toes
  7. Warrior 2

    1. Warrior 2
      Bring your back foot onto its knife edge, bend your knee and face your torso towards the side of your mat
  8. Extended triangle

    1. Extended Triangle
      Reach forward keeping your chest facing the front of the mat. bring your bottom hand to your shin and your top hand up straight into the sky
  9. Warrior 2 (see above

  10. Kneeling warrior (see above)

  11. DD (see above)

  12.  Repeat 3-9 on the other side

  13. Warrior 1

    1. Hands up and behind

    2. Warrior 1
      Step back from Tadasana about 3 feet, close your hips off by bringing your front hip back and your back hip forward. stand feet about a foot apart. raise your hands into the air, tuck your tailbone slightly
  14.  Warrior 3

    1. virabhadrasana 3
      From warrior 1, shift your weight onto your front leg, lift your back leg off the ground bringing your foot up as you come down with your torso, making a straight line from your fingertips to your toes
  15.  ½ Moon Tongue out

    1. Half moon Tongue Out
      From Warrior 3, hold onto something sturdy with your hand from the same side as your front foot. twit your chest open and to the side, and then raise your back foot so that your hips are stacked and your foot reaches out behind you.
  16.  Warrior 1 (see above)

  17. Tadasana

  18. Repeat 14-18 on your other side

  19.  

Where did you go? I’m excited to find out. Let me know! you can follow me on Instagram, Youtube, Facebook, and in my private facebook group  where you’ll get to see all the goodies i give my members for free. 

If you liked this meditation I dare say you should consider signing up for my Wild Self Love Workshop, starting August 1, 2020. If you have questions or would like to talk to me directly about more info, please message me at Royoyogaco@gmail.com

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What is Better for YOU:

Pre recorded Yoga Videos or a Live Virtual Class?

By Rose Sharon Moore

July 15, 2020

 

I asked the beginner yoga at home group why they wouldn’t want to take an online class for yoga and I got a few replies. The most common theme was that they preferred pre recorded videos. I totally get this. I learned how to do yoga at home for a variety of reasons, and today I’m going to talk about these pre recorded videos vs the pros of a virtual class.

 

Before I start I would like to let you know I have a class starting August 1, 2020 for Wild Self love. We will do yoga, meditate, contemplate, and journal for six weeks to help you gain self confidence, a life aligned with your values, and a fit bod. Click here to see the details and register. You can also message me for more info. OK let’s go!

 

 First of all, I do think they are awesome. I have to give credit to Psyche Truth on amazon prime, Crystal gray’s beginner chakra series. When I started making yoga a regular part of my daily routine, I was sick, agoraphobic, afraid of people, and incredibly out of shape. How the heck was I going to go to a real life studio? Amazon prime looked at me flashing a 30 day yoga challenge and I said hell why not. No one would see me fall on my face, no one would tell me I’m doing it wrong, and I didn’t have to leave the house. Fabulous.

 

Reasons you may choose Videos

1. Safety in not being judged

I’m an introvert, I’m shy, I don’t want to be judged. I thought that a yoga instructor would single me out because it had happened before when I had gone to the studio. Online, why would that be different? You will only judge yourself with a pre recorded video

2. You know it will end at a specific time

Ahh! A 30 minute pre recorded video, i know it won’t go over that time and that I can go along with my day easy peasy. The fear is the teacher going over, or under the time. With a pre recorded video, you know when it will end for sure

3. I don’t want people to see me!

So many people don’t want to be seen, and that is a legitimate feeling. Not everyone is an entertainer, an extrovert, or comfortable with a spotlight. 

4. Technology is hard

Getting on Zoom google meetings, or any other live streaming communication tool is difficult. I still have trouble with it at times. With a pre-recorded video you can cast your screen and go

5. I can go back to it and pause when I need the time

Probably the best pro of a prerecorded video is I can pause and spend more time getting into that twisty pose the instructor slides into. I’m not sliding into ANYTHING, give me a minute ok? 

 

So who wouldn’t say yes to all of these above? Certainly not me in the beginning. I didn’t know there were virtual classes at the time, I was scared, all the stuff I listed above. There is a cost, however, and it is paid with the price of INTIMACY. What? Are you a little worried when you hear the word intimacy? A lot of us are. People are scary right? People are mean, right? Well look, some people are, but when you take the step towards intimacy with a group of like minded people… they become your fertilizer. You bloom exponentially. Yoga is a safe place for me and with my students I want nothing more than for them to feel empowered, loved, and 

asanas

The Pros of a live online class:

1. You will know your alignment is correct

I didn’t know this was a problem until I started taking classes with my YTT instructor. Apparently an upward facing dog isn’t easy. Apparently I rounded my back a lot. Apparently I was not gaining the arm strength needed for inversions. A pre-recorded video is not going to tell you these minor (but important) alignment adjustments.

Alignment is important especially if you are going to make yoga a lifestyle choice. It will e easier to advance with correct positioning

 I live teacher will be able to see you on screen (I have a 64 inch TV I can see my students on) and tell the class little things they see which would be overlooked by a video. If you start these bad habits in the beginning, you won’t see as many improvements as you go, and you’ll eventually have to unlearn them.  PS I will not call you out by name my friends. There is no need to worry about that kind of embarrassment

 

2. Video yoga is Lonely

I didn’t realize this until I started taking virtual classes live. I was a loner, Id just lost a couple of my bffs, my job and I thought I had no self confidence. This was the reason i used pre-recorded videos. The problem though? It didn’t help these issues I had, and I know a lot of beginner yogis have said the same thing. We live in a lonely society. 

Virtual classes have helped me make friends with yogis all over the place. The community is eye opening, because all these cool online yogis get it. We are encouraging. We really know you and care. The community is huge online and the more we do it together in the safety of our own homes, the more we want to. Because I know my new friends are going to be there as well! 

 

3. Real encouragement will help you commit

I have made it halfway through tons of 30 day challenges from video yoga. Tons! In my personal practice, I am more likely to stick with something if I have a good mentor, a good teacher, and a person on the other side of the computer reminding me ‘we got class tonight’ or ‘I’m doing heart openers tonight!’ It helps me get excited. It helps me get jazzed for my class. 

And one more thing about commitment: your life will feel like a weight has been lifted from your shoulders. I see it over and over again. There is a reason the people who are into yoga are all really into yoga. It feels good, it brightens your day, it helps you see things in a way that will give you peace even in the darkest days. Commitment was a gift I gave myself, and I highly recommend it for you. Surround yourself with other yogis and its infectious. 

 

4. The Savasana is better

Savasana is weird, I will admit it. For those of you who don’t know, Savasana is how we end out classes in yoga. After you get sweaty and energetically empowered, we end the class in savasana which is a pose laying on your back for around five minutes, eyes closed, palms up. In the recorded videos I’ve noticed they only put you in savasana for a minute or so and then get you up to say namaste. 

 

That is not enough for me. As an instructor I will guide you through a full body muscle relaxation, help you calm your mind through mantra or counting, and then give you a good amount of time to relax and integrate all of the work you 

 

5. Its nice to hear your name

When I’m teaching an online class I will look at your camera. If you look great I will verbally validate you. “OMG Sara you look great,” I think I said this three times in my showcase which you can see at the yoga goddess collective. I am always excited and proud when I see my students in a beautiful crow, or even just a nice strong warrior 1. I am going to talk to YOU. I am going to give you space. I am here for all of my students. I can tell ya, the yoga videos on Amazon are not going to shower you with the praise that I have for you. If your camera is off, which some students prefer, I will still be there for ya ‘hey hope you’re doing good’ Its all

 

6. Having a scheduled class is a great structure

Some home video yoga recordings will tell you, ‘make a time in the day to do these episodes.’ and you start out like, ok sure. Then things get busy in life, and the yoga video becomes the first thing you drop. With a scheduled class, your time is managed. If you miss a class, you will make the decision with intention, thought and care. You won’t want to miss the class, though, trust me. It will be the best part of your day, and it will be something you can look forward to. 

 

Ultimately it is up to you how you want to do your yoga practice. My favorite is a combination of both. I will take a virtual class a couple times a week, a video class once or twice, and just vibe my way through poses intuitively when I’m thinking of classes for the future. I am, admittedly, a little obsessed. You can change your life with one or two classes a week. 

If you want to supercharge your yoga practice in a fun, safe, and loving environment I highly encourage you to look into my Wild Self Love Workshop. It is going to be a small group and you’ll get a lot of attention that you might not in studio, and definitely more than in a youtube video! Click Below

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and here is the schedule for my list of free activities available on my Facebook group for the month of July, 2020

events july 2020

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